you just need guts

"And I intend to live completely all of the fabric that exists inside me. I want to use it up because I want to be finished... People die and take with them their internal buried treasure... It is the most cursed treasure of all because you never reap its reward. You can never spend it. But I'm beginning to really enjoy spending the treasure inside me. I'm going to blow every penny before I'm finished because all I want in this life is to get rid of everything. All my accumulated love and knowledge is going out and continues to go out. I want to be empty. I want to give everything back. And you can do this, too. You just need guts!" ~ Rudranada